Happiness/ Memoirs of a feeling"Part...whose counting anyway".

my head is a mess,
i've cleaned and cleaned only to find a whole new carpet
i asked myself today if happiness is a journey or a destination?
frankly i was stummped i thought long and hard on why I felt like it should be a destination and not a journey but then i got sidetracked and common sense took the wheel.
good thing for common sense.
If happiness is a destination i might be a few hundred years old before i get there but if i have a little happiness on my way to where ever i'm going, i don't see how that couldn't work out.
it could be cummalative this way i may have enough of it to take me through the rough patches
Everything seems acceptable or at least tolerable right now family,friends,work.
everything except my unicorn, the one thing that eludes me even when i'm not chasing it.
I feel like a lab rat at times at the very mercy of my maker, i'm not expressing discontent with my maker i'm just simply exhausted.;


MEMOIRS

The bar has been set by your kiss,
and i've spent years searching,
sadly i haven't come as close,
it's not strange that this journey has led me back to your door,
it is funny that the whole situation seems like a re-run.
with that innevitable ending.
still i press on to find some small measure of peace,
that we all seek and few of us ever find.

Backbreaker

went for a run to test drive my new shoes today... didn't go too well, firstly i had to carry a camel bak because the distance i was planning to cover was ridiculous. secondly i didn't have a proper bag to carry this 3 litre bladder so i used a bag i had
that was a mistake. after about 15 km my back couldn't take the pain so i stopped, was feeling really good about the run though!
i stopped because this bag of mine managed to give me abbrasions on both my shoulder blades, and after it scrapped through on both sides and mixed with my sweat it hurt like hell... so i called it quits. took a cab home from bishan.... :)
nevertheless these new shoes are worth every cent.
thanks to duane's recommendation.

well it has been quite a week... i should be sleeping now but since that was impossible to do i'm here
1. was feeling like shit still today(monday) cos i was still recovering from a very bad spate of whatever the hell i had... went for a long ride.... it helped
2. the ride helped and was feeling stronger... still not invincible though!!! went for my swimming lessons(tuesday)
3decided to run (wed)today... long ...really long but slow...!!! (Ran)went to the following palces.. from my house to yio chu kang road, thomson road, cycle workx ( my bike shop) ( had to buy power gel and refill camel bak ) then towards bishan past braddel heights, past bishan onto upper serangoon road then all the way down to nativity church, then the usual way back!!! took 2hrs 24 mins!!! i call this route the "Are you Fucking Mad Route"
4. (thu)went cycling to measure the route i ran it was a whopping 24 km !!! Shit man it sure as hell felt like a lot more!!! felt like kena bluff by sales man....!