it's 0457 in the morning.. the sun isn't even up and i've been at work for already 2 hours.. went for a swim yesterday at the usual place... saw the usual creepy faggot... this guy just give's me the creeps!!!! it's nice to know when a girl is checking you out... but when a fucking faggot is doing it... it's just plain ol' SICK !!!!... it's at time's like this i feel that my nice nature is being taken for a fucking ride.. and that just makes it wrong looks like i will have to do something about it....!!!!!!!!!!!!
after the unpleasent swim i ran for a good hour and 27 mins.... needed to clear my head. i had to much on my mind already... was a long really really hot and arduous run... sun was up in it's fullest glory... and was out trying to cook me...!!! i think it did...! after that i had a late lunch and an early dinner at about 1800 hrs and was in bed asleep by 1830 hrs... had to wake up at 0155 to work at 0300 hrs... that's why i'm up so early.. and i feel refreshed...
way way too many things on my plate for sometime now, and not enough interest in me to want to fix (All of) it... sometimes even i can't be fucking bothered... why waste the time and effort on such triffle matters and end up proving to your self at the end of everything it WAS a waste of time and effort...Even If i Try again i know that histroy will repeat itself... somethings are just bound by the laws of nature to a loop... "like the day's of our live's tv series" or what i would like to refer to as " same shit different day" but still.. i have to make it clear where i stand... if i don't it's be like a re run of day's of my live!!!
Is there a need for me to be politically correct in my blog with regards to the people around me?it sure hasn't helped being completety aloof about it. again even in this my nice nature has been attacked.. and i say attacked simply because i know that i'm preyed on though i feel that the benifit of the doubt should always be given. Preyed on because i have been aloof and have not told anyone off as of yet... And for this obvious reason i will be continued to be preyed on... seems like too many people have already taken the benifit of the doubt as my first nature...
what ever it is, it will be dealt with and will end here in this year...i will not take any of this shit in to next year with me!!! so much for the live and let live...