Little minds

Is it change that you toy with or consistency that you struggle with, had I not known you better I'd have given you the benefit of the doubt and gone with the first option. But I know you and Your ways all to well. So I bid you caution in your current route for it will end up with us Estranged if it has'nt already come to that. It's like when you keep the best of me close by and the worst of me far away, without considering we're both one and The same. I have caught on and if I had ever thought that talking to you would resolve anything then I would have done so, so years ago. My peace, my relief, my solace, lies in pen on paper and no longer you.

In the end it doesn't matter.

That a blog proves easier to talk to than a partner, it's sad to think that I never fail to realize that I've come back here on so many occasion to find peace within.


August 05 2010. - April 18 2012 it's been 1 year, 8 months and 14 days since I last saw the need to talk to myself. Assuming no one reads this blog anymore i feel it's the only place left where I can speak my mind in all honesty. However brutal it maybe I accept I learn and I move on. Which is a lot more than I can say for anyone else.

I have always prided myself in believing I can communicate with anyone, sadly that's all too good to be true, arrogance mixed in well with ignorance has but proved me wrong yet again. The real worry though is that it's has done so through the same person yet again. which means that I have made a journey through peril only to be back at the same place I started. At this point it doesn't seem like all is lost. It's been lost
A Long time ago putting me In denial of what has happened again. Doesn't re-assure me of anything other than when dealing with not so intelligent people you need to prepare for not so intelligent outcomes.

Example :01

Pushing and pushing so hard and frustratingly to apply for a HDB so she can move out from where she's staying, and then acting in the opposite manner when you get what you asked for doesn't exactly give anyone ( even a retard ) confidence in your timely choice of words.
Apologizing an then prioritizing your MLM over the signing of the lease also kills confidence. Priorities show people what's more important to you than buyin that new house. ! Money/ your multi level marketing seminar. ( wow I'm so confident that our relationship is going to stand the test of time)

Example :02

Going for holidays overseas and spending 1.3k on birthday parties Instead of trying to save every penny.

I could go on and on but it's pointless, simply because you set such high expectations of me but then you, behave in the exact opposite way.