Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day....

Surprise surprise...

2010-08-04T12:02:00.004+08:00

It's been 3 years and 8 months since I last posted something here, so you Can imagine my surprise to see everything still here and intact...
It's been a wild ride so far and now the time has come to leave the chaos of the relationship I've been in and return to the introvert I once was... Boy....!!!! Things were so much easier then, can't imagine what I Was thinking, only I'm looking forward to the trip to the states that's happening end if this month... Then back to the life I knew of fun filled times with friends and family, maybe I'm not boyfriend material, maybe I am... It just seems that there's an askwed sense compromissing here it's either her way or my way and either way it comes with a shit load of unecessary attitude.... From her of course, just like in school when were kids.... But I mean like what the he'll right aren't we all a bit to old for that crap now...

It's been a while

2006-11-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

yup it has.. been really busy with training for Ironman... thats' mostly it.. will be leaving this wednesday morning for Perth and by monday i hopefully would have completed my first ironman... Whoa...!!! alot on my mind now so it really hasn't sunk in yet.. am i prepared for it.. i'd like to think so. wish me luck..

??

2006-10-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

bleah.....!

...

2006-10-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

it's been a long week... and weekend. was really sick the whole of saturday, till i couldn't stand it.. then dragged myself out of bed and to the hospital.. spent the whole night there in the A&e with my mom in the waiting room. really bad case of food poisoning.. am on mc for mon and tues. went for Jj's wake on friday night. Gordon's body still hasn't been found, it's really sad that you're here today and gone tomorrow, in a blink of an eye.the rest of my collegues are still in shock as well. i guess given the circumstances anyone else would be as well.

NUTz

2006-09-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

this is a little back dated but hey... who gives a shit yeah...hahaha
i finished the half iron man in desaru on the 9th of this month... did it in 6 : 11 : 11 .
and i survived.. it was a 2 kilometer swim a 90 kilometer Ride And my favourite... 21 kilometer RUN.. oh and it was blisstering hot..that day... almost ended up as stir fry... well now that that's in the bag and i have rested the whole of last week. i can now start trainning for the full iron man in Western Australia.... What a NUT!!!
half iron full iron... i'm sure you can handle the math... at least... hmmm.

push my button.

2006-08-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

have you seen the new music video Buttons - snoop dogg & pussy cat dolls....man they're a group of fine looking feline's

Happiness/ Memoirs of a feeling"Part...whose counting anyway".

2006-06-17T14:35:00.000+08:00

my head is a mess,
i've cleaned and cleaned only to find a whole new carpet
i asked myself today if happiness is a journey or a destination?
frankly i was stummped i thought long and hard on why I felt like it should be a destination and not a journey but then i got sidetracked and common sense took the wheel.
good thing for common sense.
If happiness is a destination i might be a few hundred years old before i get there but if i have a little happiness on my way to where ever i'm going, i don't see how that couldn't work out.
it could be cummalative this way i may have enough of it to take me through the rough patches
Everything seems acceptable or at least tolerable right now family,friends,work.
everything except my unicorn, the one thing that eludes me even when i'm not chasing it.
I feel like a lab rat at times at the very mercy of my maker, i'm not expressing discontent with my maker i'm just simply exhausted.;

MEMOIRS

The bar has been set by your kiss,
and i've spent years searching,
sadly i haven't come as close,
it's not strange that this journey has led me back to your door,
it is funny that the whole situation seems like a re-run.
with that innevitable ending.
still i press on to find some small measure of peace,
that we all seek and few of us ever find.

Backbreaker

2006-06-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

went for a run to test drive my new shoes today... didn't go too well, firstly i had to carry a camel bak because the distance i was planning to cover was ridiculous. secondly i didn't have a proper bag to carry this 3 litre bladder so i used a bag i had
that was a mistake. after about 15 km my back couldn't take the pain so i stopped, was feeling really good about the run though!
i stopped because this bag of mine managed to give me abbrasions on both my shoulder blades, and after it scrapped through on both sides and mixed with my sweat it hurt like hell... so i called it quits. took a cab home from bishan.... :)
nevertheless these new shoes are worth every cent.
thanks to duane's recommendation.

2006-06-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

well it has been quite a week... i should be sleeping now but since that was impossible to do i'm here
1. was feeling like shit still today(monday) cos i was still recovering from a very bad spate of whatever the hell i had... went for a long ride.... it helped
2. the ride helped and was feeling stronger... still not invincible though!!! went for my swimming lessons(tuesday)
3decided to run (wed)today... long ...really long but slow...!!! (Ran)went to the following palces.. from my house to yio chu kang road, thomson road, cycle workx ( my bike shop) ( had to buy power gel and refill camel bak ) then towards bishan past braddel heights, past bishan onto upper serangoon road then all the way down to nativity church, then the usual way back!!! took 2hrs 24 mins!!! i call this route the "Are you Fucking Mad Route"
4. (thu)went cycling to measure the route i ran it was a whopping 24 km !!! Shit man it sure as hell felt like a lot more!!! felt like kena bluff by sales man....!

Where'd you go?

2006-05-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,
"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,And,
I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?
"I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?
"I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin',
no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

THe BUzz IS

2006-05-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

In my head.. went to church this morning with a hang over... only thing is i haven't had alcohol in a week or so at least.!!! the medication i'm on now leaves me with quite the buzz after consumption! was stonning in mass and after that... hell i'm still stonning gonna have lunch in a bit then gotta take them meds again... *SMILES* more LiKe *GRINS*

was really sick this whole week... i know it's mostly because of over exertion but who the hell cares right.... yeah untill it hits you then you do...!! so i've been taking it really slow

happened on tuesday after my swimming lessons, i knew i hadn't had enough of rest and was on my way home to shift some furniture out and in!!! even with the two bangladeshi guys i paid to help me it was still quite the task.!! from there in was just down hill... till i finally decided to see a doctor... got a shit load of medicine and almost got ventollin as well... but said i didn't want it...!!!
which seemed rather strange to the doc...

been behaving really well with taking all the meds... so it's no wonder i'm starting to feel better... give it another day at least to be figthing fit... then i can head back into training... osim is just around the corner!

Holding it in!!

2006-05-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

Went for dinner and drinks (beer) on saturday then went to watch mission impossible III . Lesson learnt... drinking before a movie is not such a bad idea... if the seats in the cinema came with it's own bed pan !!!

Doctor whaT???

2006-04-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

HAd a Really bad morning after my really good swim today,
The problem is i have a really sensitive nose... and when ever i spend too much time in the water i catch a runny nose, it doesn't stop till i take medication for it!! so here i am at the doctor and i'm waiting to go in and it's like any other time!!! i've been seeing this doctor now for the last5 years atleast... on and off ( it's a rotation between two other doctors as well ) ( But this guy is the primary) I tell him that i went swimming yada yada yada...And then he tells me to stop swimming ! if swimming aggravates my sinus then stop swimming, a person won't die if he doesn't take part in tri-athlons!!! i stared at him blankly!!! i didn't say anything... but i knew one thing was for sure!!! That it was time to look for a new doctor...!!! Sorry doc you screwed up big time!!!
As for the swim, it's part of a trainning schedule... here's what i did in the pool this morning, it's all in meters
200 warm up, 200 kicks, 200 pulls, 200 normals, 1 x 1000 Main and followed by warm down 200 slow!!!
so in total i did 2000 meters this morning that's like 40 laps!!!
so EXcuuuuuuse Me !!! IF Quiting IS not a VIABLE option to me!!!

To Boo Boo Or not To Boo BOo

2006-04-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching the bourne Identity was a really good show.. one of my all time favourites, along with it's followed counterpart The bourne Supremacy...

But here's a boo boo made by the sponsor's for tonights show ( Carlsberg)
Jason bourne has dinner with the girl , and her friend with the two kids in the house!!! and he picks up a beer to drink!!! ANd you can see it as clear as day. it's a Heineken...

Tsk Tsk!!!

A Weekend with Wholsome Berg

2006-03-27T11:41:00.000+08:00

Saturday 18th of march

It started on after a whole lot of questions to and from Richie our event booker come organizer, we and Robyn picked the vehicle up at around 12ish then headed to pick up the rest of the Geng!! Which includes Gregg, Rishi and Damien plus me Robin and Richie the 6 of us bergs .we had lunch at Newton circus then made our way towards Tuas? We decided that would be a good point to enter…seeing to how I only knew the way from there… So yeah…!!!

Our first pit stop we armed ourselves with cigarettes and drinks then headed down the North South Highway.. With me laughing and laughing, the jokes ranged from everything to anything to do with anything. Including the choices of music for this Drive/road trip. we made a few more stops then. Pee stops, smoke stops, Richie totally missed Malacca… for what ever reason but that was funny too….And he missed it while we were low on petrol… wasn’t funny but we laughed anyway…

When we finally got there I went walking around to the shops near by to see if I could find the STAR, it’s a local newspaper and my cousin told me there was a map we could use in it… After discreetly checking in (I Don’t think they’d allow 6 people to stay together in one room) to one king size bed and a single bed in a room. We started taking showers, because it was already 6ish and we were hungry too. While waiting to shower Gregg takes out this huge ass inflatable mattress for two and says OH SHIT!!! Well he forgot to bring the pump. So we spent sometime filling up that mattress…with the hairdryer… *Grins* yup… It worked… after a small fire that is…

Finally got ready and left…decided to have dinner first… So we had it at the hawker center next to the hotel… Then drove to KLIA getting out of the car… was when it hit me… we were finally there… hearing the music from like six hundred meters away… still sounded solid.. We partied had a few beers… which finished before 11.. Yup they ran out beer
Yeah can you believe that…??? Jess was solid too… when she sang... when it was over we went for supper where we were surprised black sauce seemed to have been on offer that day…everything we ordered had black sauce in it… for hor fun to eee min …
Weird..

Got back then went to sleep for the ride home the next morning…

Finally woke up and started to get ready to leave once we were finally done cat woman was on TV… The leather suit was rather distracting.. Took a while till we were really really done.. Went down to check out then finally went to the mpv.. . For the next surprise

Our rear right tire was flat... totally flat... it wasn't a complete puncture there was still air in it..but it was just too little... too little to drive back to singapore... so we drove around looking for a tire shop..finally found one then got scared cas we thought it was gona cost a bomb ...it didn't ..was like five bucks... no wait...ringgit..!!! after a hearty lunch at NAndo's this chicken restaurant..we drove back... our last leg of the trip...

We stopped at permas jaya...and went go karting... that was a real riot by far... tehn we had another hearty seafood dinner.. ate till i almost popped... shit man it only cost us like eight dollars each.. hahaha now that's what i call a meal...!!! then headed home... well at least that was the plan ended up satisfying our insastiable need for milkshake.. you... ended up at lido makkers havin a milkshake...was the cherry on top... of a very eventful day...
Well post mortem... Say that that was a road trip for the books... the good books of course..

Love in an Elavator

2006-03-01T10:49:00.001+08:00

Living it up while i'm going down...! this is a little overdue but since i haven't stopped thinkin about... it at least desrves to be written about... i went swimming with loyd and simon at least two weeks ago thursday... 16...yup that's it.. in suntec tower 2 and on the way out of the lift there were two girls there.... on the ground floor.. it's like living one cliché after another... like one here's one then just around the corner..there's another...hmmmm very tiring... anyway she was wearing a shirt and ¾ jeans...and yup she was smokin.... as in hot...!!! now perhaps i can forget about her and move on to my next one... cliché that is... she did look very familliar though...

Hmmm is it even possible...!

2006-02-17T11:12:00.000+08:00

I'm here at my com... And for the first time in a very long time... I'm content.. With the way things are.. I've seem to have come a long long way.. and i know i haven't said this out aloud... ( for fear of jinx'ing it ) that things a really good.. and i'm happy..!!!! whoa... there's a revelation... Job suck's and i'm ok with it...!!! i have enough dough...!!! Marrissa and Alex are getting it on in the second season of the OC...( bettter late than never...) NOw there's excitment for ya... Am waiting on a reply for a new job...!!!! hmmm yup that's it... it's smooookin!!!!

Irony at it best....

2006-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

I sat through a briefing today... and it was mostly on personal appearence and dress code. We were told Qoute " there is this guy in paya lebar with a mohawk and it was pink and he had six peircings on one ear... " unqoute
Hmmmm i was thinking... that's pretty cool.. i don't believe that i've ever had a pink mohawk... not too late to go out and get one is it...!!!!
And then a comment was passed that he should be working in a zoo... or better yet he should be an exihibit...
i was appalled!!!! i mean like what the fuck man...
Have we really come down to blatantly judging a person by his/her looks or is this just another one of those older people with nothing better to do or say..
in 1995 there was a guy... clean cut no tattoo's no peircings.. he ended up being a supremesist... and killing more than a hundred and fifty people... ... nothing here.. just venting...!!!!

What were you doin last night

2006-01-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

It's tuesday... what were you doing last night between 10pm and 11pm.....

follow up

2006-01-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

went for an x-ray today to see about my neck... just to follow up.. went down to bike shop to evaluate cost of repairs.. then went to see the motorcyclist... he agreed to cover the damages... have to draw up a contract to state that no futher action will be taken on both parties once settlement has been received... soon it'll all be over... but the fear is already there... i guess fear is a good thing to have..for now... sometimes it doesn't matter how safe you are... if someone else isn't you could still end up bearing the brunt of it and it's pain's and scar's...

shaken not stirred

2006-01-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

went with duane simon and eugene this morning for the sly ride,
was cool to see that many people come down to support the cause,
to create better awarness between road user's and Roadist/cyclist,
on the way back though i nearly became a statistic myself... was hit on the right by a motorcycle... wasn't doing more than thirty kilometers an hour on impact.. got hooked and draged a little and almost lost my face to the rear tire of the motorcycle .The helmet saved my head for sure.. when i went down... iwent down hard i was pretty sure i wasn't going to get up...for a second.. but i did.. thank god..! Main cause of the accident... he wasn't counting on me being on the left when he tried to over take the bus on the " left "!!!

i swear this is true

2005-12-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

Malasia's tv2 is probably michael learns to rock's biggest ond only fans...!!! there are sooooo many music video's that are produce( exact numbers unavailable currently ) yearly... but their airways seem to hold true to MLTR... no matter what...

And on a completely different and way off note... the hitch hikers guide to the galaxy was throughly entertaining...

a little time on my hands

2005-12-13T04:56:00.000+08:00

it's 0457 in the morning.. the sun isn't even up and i've been at work for already 2 hours.. went for a swim yesterday at the usual place... saw the usual creepy faggot... this guy just give's me the creeps!!!! it's nice to know when a girl is checking you out... but when a fucking faggot is doing it... it's just plain ol' SICK !!!!... it's at time's like this i feel that my nice nature is being taken for a fucking ride.. and that just makes it wrong looks like i will have to do something about it....!!!!!!!!!!!!
after the unpleasent swim i ran for a good hour and 27 mins.... needed to clear my head. i had to much on my mind already... was a long really really hot and arduous run... sun was up in it's fullest glory... and was out trying to cook me...!!! i think it did...! after that i had a late lunch and an early dinner at about 1800 hrs and was in bed asleep by 1830 hrs... had to wake up at 0155 to work at 0300 hrs... that's why i'm up so early.. and i feel refreshed...

way way too many things on my plate for sometime now, and not enough interest in me to want to fix (All of) it... sometimes even i can't be fucking bothered... why waste the time and effort on such triffle matters and end up proving to your self at the end of everything it WAS a waste of time and effort...Even If i Try again i know that histroy will repeat itself... somethings are just bound by the laws of nature to a loop... "like the day's of our live's tv series" or what i would like to refer to as " same shit different day" but still.. i have to make it clear where i stand... if i don't it's be like a re run of day's of my live!!!

Is there a need for me to be politically correct in my blog with regards to the people around me?it sure hasn't helped being completety aloof about it. again even in this my nice nature has been attacked.. and i say attacked simply because i know that i'm preyed on though i feel that the benifit of the doubt should always be given. Preyed on because i have been aloof and have not told anyone off as of yet... And for this obvious reason i will be continued to be preyed on... seems like too many people have already taken the benifit of the doubt as my first nature...

what ever it is, it will be dealt with and will end here in this year...i will not take any of this shit in to next year with me!!! so much for the live and let live...

Hmmmmmm

2005-12-10T02:47:00.000+08:00

time now is 2:47:06 and i'm still at work.. this saturday morning... should be goin home soon... hmmmm i recall having one... i could be mistaken...

there's a song for everything

2005-12-08T10:29:00.000+08:00

and there's no denying that, so how am i feeling now.... simple !

" my ya hee
my ya ha
my ya ho
my ya ha ha

my ya hee
my ya ha
my ya ho
my ya ha ha"

ala chicken little style...! ( sung with the runnig man dance of course )!

HeLL YeaH....!!!

2005-11-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

yup i'm back... blogging from the comfort and convenience of my home... haha ( jumps for joy...)
my com is back... and it working...OOooooo the joy... " ITS ALIVE...i Tell you " just brought it back...gona sleep now..really tired.. chucked a sickie so i could paint my house... finished the base coat today.. tomorrow i start on the two colours... vince will be here to help... Phew.. i think the actually work is alot more bearable than the smell.... Bluuueah...!!! ( puke face)...

Friends, romans countrymen lend me you ears...

2005-11-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

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p.p.s. In case some of you are actually thinking of of trying out my password...
i've already changed it.. so don't bother....
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Proposition for a disposition

2005-10-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

Yup that would be just the thing i need to keep this blog alive... considering how talented i am at killing computers... ( why can't it be " a poorly built one " )

i have decided to purchase a handphone with xhtml capabilities also because i have a memory of the likes of ten second tom ( 50 first dates )i spend too much time time thinking about what to write that by the time i'm at a com and ready... it's all gone... where does it go too... Am i being abducted without knowledge or consent by extraterrestrial's where partial memory loss is part of the experience... then again if they were after me... and the faith of human kind hangs precariously over my head..., you lot should get help real quick.

it's a sunday...and i'm at work...

i have finally finish watching for the first time the entire first season of The OC ... newly converted... now it's on to season two... now that i'm hooked...
at the rate i'm going...my dvd player will have problems trying to keep up... oh ya the tv too...

update ( aha that's all this is)

2005-10-22T14:49:00.000+08:00

yup still busy and with not much free time ... as for the time management bit... what management??? with what time.... in the same way what good is there in hiring an asset manager when you have no asset's....

still alive and kicking

2005-10-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

And that's the thruth... just really busy... with alot on my plate...

busy, no com, no time....

2005-09-20T12:03:00.000+08:00

part of the many excuses i have for not blogging for as while... but i shall start again... weho knows when, or where or even why... i' LL bE bACK, ala swachannegro style.... till then dont get your nickers in a bunch...

hmmmm

2005-09-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

hot hot hot hot ...yup she is.... rosario dawson akan datan ke tv 2 ( my channel 5 is programmed to no 2) sweet home sweet cheerios.... what relation that has to ceareal...i have no idea... went riding.. been training... looking at new bike's and accessories...man this will be one of those unending dilema's..... still drooling over them parts .... heard this song play on tv... was a james blunt song... it was the background music for the full circle...i think.... ends with good bye my lover... good bye my friend.... must look up the album sounds like pretty easy listening....

It's Official

2005-08-30T15:31:00.000+08:00

I loooove NOUGAT.....!!! yup no doubt about it....!

Tis sad sad Day

2005-08-25T12:33:00.000+08:00

It brings me great distress to announce this...the untimely passing of a friend, though it's been only a short while since we've known each other...it feels as if you were always close to me... Almost like you were watching over me. Like i tell all my friends " death in life is all part of a bigger picture.." But still to have you taken away from me so suddenly seem's unfair... sometimes i feel as if it were i that drove you to your death... other times i'm convinced that i did.Nevertheless we will try ressusitate you again...a week now from your passing tomorrow... at Stuart's place and if all else' fails then i bid you my trusty computer. goodbye and farewell my friend.... " sigh...!!!"

Doctor doctor.... sheesh....

2005-08-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

i was thinking just yesterday( i try not to make a habit of it but yeah...) what the polyclinic doctor told me about my the pain in my leg.. he said it was a strain and that i should stop running and get some rest it's a good thing i asked for further treatment... so he wrote me a letter to see an orthopedic at CGH...

was then sent to SGH for a bone scan...as it turns out i have a stress fracture on my tibia ( hair line crack ) ( and it can't be seen in an x-ray ) ( was injected with an isotope and it sort of adds dimensions to the fracture ) and it's toxic....

basically the two bones of the lower leg are called the tibia and fibula. The tibia is the larger of the two and its role is load bearing. The fibula is the smaller of the two and its role is mainly for muscle attachment. Either of these bones can have stress fractures. The most common site however is two to three inches above the bony bit on the inside of the ankle (medial malleolus) on the tibia bone ( which is what i have). so i've gotta take it real slow...

went swimming on tuesday then cycling on wednesday.... and cycling on thursday as well...
WHAT!!! it was a slow cycle.... hahaha... next appointment is on 1 september.... man... by the time i'm given the proper medication...it would have healed.....hahahaha it's already been3 months...

What a movieee

2005-08-09T12:17:00.000+08:00

A very strange one as well... charlie and the chocolate factory.... i can't remember the book being as twisted as the movie... And it did feel as though it were more an adult film then a childs... i swear there were a few.. including myself that walked outa the theater with the "duh" look on our face's .... entertaining..... maybe a little.... ok it was really funny with the dancing and the umphaloompa's... confusing.... a hellova lot...
nothing much happening.. as usual... it's national day... barhumbug.... it's a public holiday but i'm at work.. crappy huh.. i'm all worn out from arguing the pay aspect of it... and i shall not go into it... or else i'll confuse myself again... gona head home and go for a swim then cycle the usual loop as well... guess that's a bout it...

MEmoirs of a feeling ( part 8) "look,looks,looked"

2005-08-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

back by popular(if you check my dialog box you'll see it's only one but hey it still counts) demand... :)

when you look at some one what do you see...
do you see all there is or is there more
And are you pleased with what you see or is what you look at,
not exactly what you had in mind

when you check out someone's looks what do you see...
do you see all there is or is there more
And are you pleased with what you see or is what you look at,
not exactly what you had in mind

And now when you're looked at what do they see...
Do they see all there is or is there more
And are they pleased with what they see or is it what they see,
not exactly what they had in mind

Full cirlce eh.. seems like eyerything goes round and round,
the good the bad and the ugly,
So here's what i plan on doing with something i have no control over,
Standing still.... ;)

What a mess

2005-08-03T10:04:00.000+08:00

oh man what a mess.... sometimes i wonder... why me... then i take a good long look in the mirror... and it hit's me.... " No wonder...!!! "

settings

2005-07-22T10:36:00.000+08:00

Well it's true... the settings on my Cateye wireless was not set right... so i mananged to find it ont he net... and have already reset my settings... what a difference.. was 2155 and now its 1955... i think it's correct... well i hope it is...

The Da Vinci Code

2005-07-20T09:56:00.000+08:00

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Craked and contributed by Ansley Mahinda
Purely For the lack of anything else better to write about and because my own life's a complete bore to myself...( I FEEL YOUR PAIN ) NO time, NO money,No promotion, No Scandalous affairs with married and/or older women.

Yesterday

2005-07-14T19:18:00.000+08:00

Well kev and mike have lleft... and gone to study... soooo long fellas... have a really good time in adelaide... ( if it is even possible) ... And try and study... i know how much cheaper alcohol is there but... that's no excuse... well for now .. !!! other than that... "life's just peachy" according to korn!!! went to work...came back ... went to waok came bak... went to waor came brack... that's all there is to that... didn't do anything else... No wait did two loops of coastal raod with duane, earnest and eugene... was intersting how we did the whole drafting thinga ma jig... of course then we had dinner... i had a plate of Nasi goreng Mata Lembu merah and most of the Kway teow that i was supposd share with duane... and to was that down sugar cane... then came home and ate the masala Thosai my mom bought for me... Hmmmmmit's no wonder i have a ponch or two... One for food and the other for beer.... "mmmmmm Beeeeeer" ( like how Homer Does it...) ( with the Blank look as well)

Weekend

2005-07-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

Oh MAn what a weekend... went into jb for a cousin's birthday... was a well timed break.. from everything... was a good time all in all... i guess i could put up some of the picture's but am still in limbo with regards as to how it's done.... help any one...??? kevin and michael are leaving tonight for adelaide... Makkal's it's sad to see you both go... but it has to be done right.... will miss you both of you... short and sweet... for now...

what a day...

2005-06-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

it all started at 2:50 am in the morning when i decided to cycle to work... it's about 23 km one way.. before i left i dropped my guess watch and the glass shattered... knew i should have left it on the floor... when it dropped... couldn't have prevented it... but could'ave at least stalled it...hahaha... cylced to work... once i got to pasir ris drv 12... had a flat tire... what perfect timing... was travelling light so didn't bring my spare tube or pump... hailed a cab and had someone pick me up at the gate...of my base... yeeesh and the day isn't over yet... what else could happen huh....!!!

Blast from the past

2005-06-20T23:54:00.000+08:00

Was at work today... in the tool store... fixing something... since I work with all these old men the preferred choice for radio is gold 90.5... there's nothing wrong with the station...it's just that I’m not ready for retirement yet... so I was near the radio... when this song came on... and this is the first time in my life that I’ve ever heard this song played on the radio...I started tearing and I had to walk to the back so no one would see me... as I saw clear as day all the time's I heard that song sung to me by aunty molly. I dried my eyes went back to the radio then put my phone to it to record it... then this fucker of a colleague started making this piercing screaming sound just to disrupt the already muffled recording... I saw red... then I took my phone away... and went to the back of the store... where I called the station and spoke to the DJ where he asked how I knew the song... after he told me the name of the singer and the song title ( Millie small - my boy lollipop! ) I told him that when I was a kid I had an aunt who sang it to me... and I told him that I love her and missed her... then what does he say....??? hmmmmmm aunt... hmmmm boy lollipop... hmmm... was she hot...!!!! WALAU......... I was like WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!! but... since I was already angry with a colleague who was more tangible than a voice on the radio.... I let it slide.... And I found out what the song was called and who sang it...

love actually....

2005-06-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

just watched in the Ansley village cinema... ie home... with vince and jo... bloody marvellous movie.. brilliant... so which guy would i be... i know... exactly which one i'd be... the guy who watches the girl he loves madly marry someone else... kindovan irony...

point to ponder.

2005-06-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

today i sat in the cab of an diesel tanker, to escort the driver into the base, inside his cab what greeted me was completely unexpected... i wasn't greeted by your usual porn pin up's as i usually would be...or car's at the least... along with the porn... this guy was a new guy to this company... he had a little make shift alter.. of some buddhist origin and he had jasmine flowers on the alter... just below the alter i saw a picture...figured it was his three kids...
so out of curiosity i asked him... your kids? while pointing to the pic... he nodded... and smiled... we talked a little.. then he went on his way... before he left i asked him how he maneged... three kids and a wife.. that wasn't working... he simply said.. that he was contended... quite a big word.. i thought... considering we were both speaking in a mix of english and hokkien... but the look on his face told me he was...

What's new in mAaah LIfe...

2005-06-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

JOb: Still Sucks
PAy: BEtter but when is it ever enough!
Mum: still alive!
Sister: still alive... tsk tsk tsk tsk!!! get with the program already.... biaaaaaaaatch...
Time: i have not enough.. kinda goes together with money...
stress: Why sweat it huh.... think smart act blur...!!!
Love: YEeesh it's my kryptonite!
Game: splinter cell.... sweet... seeing as to how being a secret agent is harder in real life...i'll stick to the game....
Band: man there's too many things to do... Duane get your ass back here man!!!
Fighting Donuts: Return of the abs....hahaha not you abs...my aBS...!!!!
RaCer: is a sweet ride... ( gotta get the clip on shoes soon though )
Running: Another yikes.... might not be able to run for a long time...!! crap... doesn't look good...
swim: Wooo Hoooo move over IAn Thorpe... i'm closin in on ya....!!! sweet home alansbumhole!....
ons : we'll see la!!!! work in progress...
in general..... Nothing... !!!

EEEeeeeeeeew

2005-06-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

Good gawd.... a collegue of mine was sent out today to buy something... Supposedlya surprise for everyone... and it was a surprise.... a revolting one... he came back with more than fifty durian's.... man what a stench....... that hangar is gonna smell for weeks to come.... peeeeuuuuu...
io got as far as i could as fast as i could..... but it still ruined my appetite... so that's preety much it... went to town to pass ling back her cd... then low and behold... who do i bump into.. mark..... we ahd a drink at nydc and just talked .... been really busy... well not exactly busy but...my new hours are not normal hours...so..it's a strain... on meeting or going out with any of my friends...
what happens next, what happens next..... i dare you to move ( listening to the radio now....)

man there really nothing to watch on 5... gawd forbid another local production...

met abs van and chris just now... swam... personal best of twenty laps in 31 mins.... wow... but of course the two dolphins ( Abs and Van) were already done by then... crap.....!!! :) heh heh

to Gripe or not to gripe

2005-06-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

just had a bath .... Pheeeew..... what a feeling....!!! hahaha ( look no flies....)

Here are two scenarios’ both separately simply tell a tale… but together they put time into perspective…

First one.. I went to see a private doctor about my leg and was sent for an x-ray, went for it the next day and subsequently went back to my doc the following day, she sees it tells me that there’s nothing wrong and she’d refer me to an orthopedist…. Make’s the appointment for me and it’s the following day at Changi General .Hosp.

(This only happened because I was told that my company wouldn’t claim’s for referral’s to specialist by GP’s [private doctor’s] so I had to get a referral from a polyclinic doctor)

Second one.. I went to see a polyclinic doctor about my leg and and used the existing x-ray ….He looked at it told me nothing was wrong and made an appointment for me with an orthopedist at???? (Yup you guessed it) Changi general… but get this appointment is in the 28/07/05 and that’s the earliest…. According to them….

So what happens to your average Joe… will he get medical attention in time.. Beat’s me…

Went for a ride… third one this week… average a twenty k/m distance for a start… but doesn’t feel like it really count’s… there are apparently a lot of traffic light’s… have to bring up the cycling and swimming… no choice… can’t run…. Crap… feel like a paraplegic…

something strange happend on my way out of the poly... bumped into someone... was just strange... (winks.. yep i'm talkin bout you...) germaine... ( in a politically correct way of course....) hahaha
and hey it just occured to me... i never got your number... will e-mail you mine... Then you can call me... ( shyless)

Sleepless in seattle

2005-05-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yup just watched it again... on tv.. and yep it's still a classic... can't deny that... two people finding each other and just with one look... knowing..it would work.. strange...but hey it could work.. yup it sounds sappy... even worse that it's coming from a guy... but hey... it was meg ryan... who am i to fight a force of nature... hahahaha... timeless classic.. of love... musdt say it left me grinning.. and now that it's over in on the net... it's past midnight but i'm not asleep yet... maybe i'm just sleepless in singapore.. what am i saying.. beats me... even i'm clueless... but without straying too much from this new found hope...( from a movie )

With a call or even a letter,
a timeless classic unfolds,
of young love and maybe a future,
if i may be so bold.

Big band styled frank say's
you're nobody till somebody love's you,
he's right on that one,
and till then the search continue's

great expexctations i have none,
simplicity is the key.

for now there's a somebody i'm longing to see
i hope that she turn's out to be,
someone who'll watch over me....

moth-man prophecy

2005-05-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

for some strange reason there seems to be a lot of moths around... is it seasonal... today alone i've counted more than twenty of em... all in the Changi vicinity can anyone else confer...? or is this just a prelude to a specific calamnity... hmmm...

thw weekend

2005-05-24T09:20:00.000+08:00

YEs finally finished up what i've wanted to do for a longtime... built up my cupboard to sort of the walkin kind.... put in flourescent lamps, re did the wiring, put in a new shelf for all my toiletry's in the cupboard.. now all that's left to do is to get a really huge mirror to put in...!!! well that 's not the only thing i fininshed this weekend.... i FINALLY finished need for speed underground 2 .... up it's over for good... all upgrade's unlocked... wow.....!!!! months and months of hard work... all paid off... or was it ..... welll i'm gona start another game soon... can't deceide what game though..

MUCh to do About Nutin

2005-05-13T08:49:00.000+08:00

Nutin worth reporting... every journalist's nigthmare.... but i'm not one so...heheheheeh haha hoohoho hihih ... i'm quite bored...

blah blah

2005-04-25T22:31:00.001+08:00

it's funny how i read stuff and think " hey that would be cool to write about.." or if i think of some thing to say... " cool..! i can put that on my blog" but it still scares me not knowing exactly who read's this shit... "this man's shit could be another man's knife in my back.." if correctly applied ... and then there's there's lawsuits... am i being paranoid... stupid quetion i know... but who is safe... does my disclaimer as the very first entry count for anything.. and leagal aide's out there...

2005-04-17T03:34:00.000+08:00

Grabbed by my collar and shoved to the wall,
was i when it dawned on me,
it takes just the right amount of false hope to write about you

An im possible task with a mind plagued with worry
needless to say of frugal matters
but it is false hope that brought me so far

So i guess i'll keep feeding that hope
of a happily forever after.

Well Hung

2005-04-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

yup it's official... my mind has moved out.... for real... head's gona split cos of a hang over... man this hurt's more than it should.... Thanks to stuart of course... Looks like beer is the only frontier for this makkal.... hahahah Shheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh... got to go look for for a new mind now...

Taxing

2005-04-15T11:07:00.000+08:00

all righty then...it's done... i'm out off the red ... hahahaha i sucessfully submitted my income tax....hahaha it's a bout time... with like a whole day to spare...

TAtx TAx TAx

2005-04-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAaaaaargh i haven't filled my income tax yet... super last minute... man this is where the problem starts... what's the point of your company being in the auto inclusion when you still have to file your income at an under resourced website....??? it hangs... it rejects and it doesn't get filed...sheeesh... what's giong on la dey!!!! HArlow.. goo morknee.....!!!

Be cool

2005-04-04T15:34:00.000+08:00

i never thought i'd see the day The Rock acted Gay...!!! Man what a laugh... and Vince Vaughn.... hahahahaha i still can't get over how good the movie was.... And hell come on man...at least give it up for the Red Shoes...hahahahahahaha

Bon Voge

2005-03-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

Well they're gone... yup .. my aunt and cousin were putting up in my place for the past two and a half week's or so.... and they left this morning... couldn't see them off because i had to work... the house is all quite and all my other relative's have left as well... miss em....!!!

One of the Many Unexplainable Thing's in life

2005-03-25T12:27:00.000+08:00

I live at home with my mom and sis... that make's it the three of us...!!!
I Have a grand total of nine toothbrush's in my toilet at home....?????
Care to expalin.... ???? how many toothbrushes do you have...????

i'm buggered...

2005-03-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

Whoah...has it been that long long since i've been here... vwell i've been too buys ... for a while now... the new shift's atwork is a trial that only time can sort out..... And most of the free time i have will go to resting up....

With surreal tranqulity you sleep,
lost in a realm, of happy thoughts,
how i'd wish you'd take me there...,
where it is pure and untainted by lust's short coming's

The Thruth is Right here...!!!

2005-03-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm positive that a large number of men will agree with me and perhaps some women too... enjoy...

In the world of romance, one single rule applies to the men: Make the woman happy. Do something she likes, and you get points. Do something she dislikes and points are subtracted.
You don't get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played. Here is a guide to the point system:

SIMPLE DUTIES
You make the bed (+1)
You make the bed, but forget the decorative pillow (0)
You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1)
You go out to buy her what she wants (+5)
In the rain (+8)
But return with Beer (-5)
You check out a suspicious noise at night (0)
You check out a suspicious noise, and it is nothing (0)
You check out a suspicious noise and it is something (+5)
You pummel it with iron rod (+10)
It's her pet (-10)

SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS
You stay by her side the entire party (0)
You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with a colleage buddy (-2)
Named Tina (-4)
Tina is a dancer (-6)
Tina has silicon implants (-80)

HER BIRTHDAY
You take her out to dinner (0)
You take her out to dinner and it's not a sports bar (+1)
Okay, it's a sports bar (-2)
And it's all-you-can-eat night (-3)
It's a sports bar, it's all-you-can-eat night, and your face is painted the colours of your favourite team (-10)

A NIGHT OUT
You take her to a movie (+2)
You take her to a movie she likes (+4)
You take her to a movie you hate (+6)
You take her to a movie you like (-2)
It's called 'DeathCop' (-3)
You lied and said it was a foreign film about orphans (-15)

YOUR PHYSIQUE
You develop a noticeable potbelly (-15)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and exercise to get rid of it (+10)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and resort to baggy jeans and baggy Hawaiian shirts (-30) You say, "It doesn't matter, you have one too." (-8000)

ENJOY THE 'BIG' QUESTION
She asks, "Do I look fat?" (-5) [Yes, you LOSE points no matter WHAT]
You hesitate in responding (-10)
You reply, "Where?" (-35)
Any other response (-20)

COMMUNICATION
When she wants to talk about a problem , you listen, displaying what looks like a concerned _expression (0)
You listen, for over 30 minutes (+50)
You listen for more than 30 minutes without looking at the TV (+500)
She realizes this is because you have fallen asleep (-10000)

Promotion....

2005-03-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

Wah finally got PROMOTED...... four years and nine months after leaving the army i get this letter today addressing me As LCP(NS) Michael mahinda Dedampe Gamage Ansley... WOOOOOO Whoooooo.... took them awhile huh.... Logistic's for the Logistic's Department was never they're forte.... .... And No ceremony somemore.... Walau... What Crap man...Imagine if we had a war We'll be doing paperwork for centuries to come....

Aching legs...

2005-03-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

i ran my "so help me gawd route"... 1 hr 5 mins 2 sec... freaking boring run... soooo damn far... soooo damned bored.. no music as well... made things worse... at stu's now... Need for speeeeed Underground 2 all nigther... hahaha

The five people you meet in hEaven

2005-03-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Almost half way through the book but am already completely freaked out by it.Frankly speaking who choose's who you meet in heaven and is it all just about closure.
Certain things help to understand others but just set's one's long forgotten thoughts in motion.
Then there are the few that just completely freaks me out only because here you have someone a thrillion mile's away that managed to put exactly what i've thought about.... in the exact same words in a book... there's also the whole parent child issue where you can see obviously where your parent's have failed but you know you're almost destined to make the same mistakes with your own kids. Sooo much to say so little time to... In short who Do you meet in Heaven... someone you killed... someone who ruined your life... someone who saved your family inadvertantly saving your's... someone you truly loved with all your might and someone who suffered because of you.... But that's only IF you go to heaven.... Inadvertantly...

Streeeeached

2005-02-28T12:44:00.000+08:00

LAwrence was in town so we went to town fer a while then to this Nike soccer event thingy with Duane.. was an interesting concept... then went around did some survey's than went to play soccer at cuzy's place... was supposed toswim but was too cold... decided not to... then went to Ghand's to eat Again OH MY GAWD i had like three servings of rice.. mAn that was way way toooooo much... way too much... my stomach's deffinately two or three size's bigger... went home after that... just got this book from BEn .. tHe five people you meet in heaven... by MItch Albom... Funny thing is on the way back on the train i sat next to this girl who was half way through the same book...
BUt that's not the weird part... i disticntly recall sitting next to someone one on the train the same day i got the first Book By MItch Albom Tuesday's With Morrie... Strange.... huh...

Run Forrest...

2005-02-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

Ran the SO help me GOD route today...wow...was a decent pace but was too Bloody long... from my house to jalan KAyu...then down yio chu kang road past the first chuch... St Vincent De PAul... all the way to to hougang ave 2 then... left on to hougang ave 2.. all the way down past the stadium... and left onto upper serangoon road and onto sengkang east drive then left on to sengkang east way and past the fianl churh..St. Anne's Church.. then past compass point.. then it's home... You can stop wondering why i call it the so help me god route... haaha lucky i had music to listen to while i run.. if not...Xian ah...

Ah beng...

2005-02-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

Hoa it's friday... can't believe it but i've worked till late every day of this week...man...that's just sooooo sad.. but hey like they say..those who can..... do.... Those who can't....do Overtime...hheheheh...show me the money... :) siau.... what to do hits fli lay lor......this weekend looks alright... for now...but still too early to say anything...don't wanna jinx it.... i miss my pS2...... : / Fwah fwah...ran again last night... 35 min 05 secs..... Steady la... now can boycott SBS... no need to take bus... just run...Siau!!! ME t and old collegue..Ah beng... ( to explain my current state of mind ) siau!!!

nutin

2005-02-23T09:41:00.000+08:00

ok worked till late then went home.. went for a run... 36 mins 42sec... personal best WOO HOO...

Phew...it's over

2005-02-21T12:04:00.000+08:00

YUp it's finally over... the Nus Biathlon... was quite an experience.. .good and bad... the trainnig paid of in interest off course...hahaha...

the wait for registration was a long one... and one hell of a snaking quee..
when it finally started...it went ok for a while...now since i'm not a strong swimmer... basically while iwas swimming... i felt like i was practically tossed and turned in the water by a mass of swimmer's that are somewhat faster than me... the run was a decent one... i guess it could have been better... if i didn't have to fend off the people that were trying to hump my leg while i was swimming... that took quite alot out of me... too much to push myself for the run... but i did do it... start to finish... so i'm taking all the credit i can get...aiiight... Went for a massage after that.. man what a MASSAGE..... that was really good... went to ps for the ever so famous grilled chicken... OH ya the avoccado juice at the food court really SUCKED... what a rip off.... then came home.. R&Red fer a while then crashed... didn't sleep but was in limbo forever... neither here nor there... weird... too stuffed to sleep i guess...

Contuper lafunga

2005-02-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

i'm at stu's now... we're both trying to fix my com up... it's 1:21 in the morning... been here since about 7:40.... man what a load of crap... it started out as a software problem...looked really simple... hahaha what a laugh... turned out to be a lot more than either of us expected.... Kudo's to stu... for the effort.. YOU DA MAN.... da makkal...!!!! hahaha we should set up shop together... i'll do the hardware... you do software.... hahaha... man i could kill some one now....haha... but hey... here's looking forward to brigther computer day's... less crap...more work done... :) took a time out n went for prata... excellent... !! ok ... it back to work now... another problem.... sighzzzzzzz.......

blah blah

2005-02-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

Went for training for our biathalon tuesday... we did time trials for trials for the full bi' where there's a qualifying round... thirthy laps in forty minutes... i managed to do it in forty one minutes and fifty something seconds... close but no cigaR...haha whoa... so it's this sunday.. the NUS biathalon.. with all the trainnig and preperation... we'll be alright... i'm still using to much effort to swim... not gliding enuff.... gotta work that out.. !! went out last night to sim lim... Did you know that there are even ah beng computer geeks...hahahaha as in their cpu's are decked out in the lastest and hottest's hardware... and the hardware all looks ( in lay man term's) See bay feirce ah!!! hahaha... got a new harddisk.. then came home.. it's training again tonight... we'll be doing time tiarls for this sunday... the swim and the run... nothing much happening else where...

a little something....

famlliar like the scent of butter on fresh toast
caught in the perfect morning breeze,
with a gasp you stir from a thought in monochrome.

VaLLIUMTimesDay

2005-02-14T12:13:00.000+08:00

it's monday and im sitting at my table at work and i seem to have no recollection of a weekend... it probably seem's that way... only because i was working over the weekend... saturday and sunday... strange how two entire days' are diluted into a regular weekday... went and watched a movie yesterday...Constantine.... NOt bad not bad at all.... actually liked it... went for the the usual ever so famous Grilled chicken in black sauce after that.. in P.S.

oh ya.. it's valentine's day today... and i say that there is an overkill to it... it's hyped up and all croc... with some one you love...everyday should be valentine's day... and that door has to swing both way's as in both parties should do something special for the other.... there's just an overwhelming emphasis on valentine's day being gender biased towards women... Along with Us guy's being brain washed by the media over the last hundred years or so... how did i celebrate it... in front of my t.v.....where almost all other day's should be celebrated....

hahaha
"cliché"

And on a lighter note... All Audit's are Bullshit....!!! Favaourite song for an Audit should be Smoke on the water- Deep Purple
Smoke MAchine - The Artist...

Alcoholic's Enormous

2005-02-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

well it's been a while... so here goes... had a pretty good week... considering i didn't have to work for two days.... The weekend's completely gone though... have to complete some work for an audit... sigh....!!!! what a load of croc.... went out on thursday with duane mike stu and kev... had fun at this place called acid bar... nice... strange but nice... :) was making a lot of noise and singing along... with the help of BEER....!!!Gotta love it... even got coaxed to go up on stage and sing... Was pretty high so don't really know how it went... didn't feel too bad... And yup nobody threw anything at me...so that's a good start... so now for the next forty day's there'll be no alcohol... Yeeeeeeesh... what have i done... in my drunken stupor i agreed to give up alcohol for the whole of lent...( i actually agreed to that before but i'm still trying to worm my way out of it...) now i'm really looking forward to easter... Free Flow... Hi I"m ansley and i've been sober for twenty four hours... i'll see you when i see ya...!!!

hair Raising Experience

2005-02-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

i'm sure we've all come across the quick haircut shop called qb ... i went to one myself because i was in a hurry... big mistakae had to go for another hair cut after that to do some damage controll... :)

The weekend

2005-02-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

Was quite good... :) Tanhk YOu caaarm again

blah blah

2005-01-28T13:24:00.000+08:00

been a pretty hectic week... it's fradidadiday...Phew.... lot'sa plans this week end.. seem's like i'm spreading my self thinly... Room is more or less complete.. still goto go through some stuff to throw away... A one time clean out effort... the only outstanding thing would be my computer now... MAn...

pondering....

2005-01-23T13:39:00.000+08:00

If my life is for rent and i don't want to buy,
will i deserve nothing more than i get,
cos nothing i have is truly mine.

- Dido-

Sat there Day....

2005-01-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Had training ion the morning again... back and body still raw...no more wipping myself dry...was forced into dabbing... hahaha.. now i know what it feel's like... hahaha ... went for band today... something very funny happened there today... i got my new phone on thursday... 6260 the clamn shell one with the camera... now of course i've never used this phone before... so it's completely foreign to me... during practice i decide i need to take a crap...so while i'm on the throne of grace... (heh heh) i start mucking aroung with the camera...and before you know it i've made a little movie of me on the crapper... WAs really stupid so decided to delete it... then it happened... i couldn't delete it... i tried and tried and almost cried while laughing at the situation...hahahaha but i still couldn't delete it... so i did the worst thing possible.... i forgot about it...man!!! duane was teaching me how to use the phone later that day and he saw it... we both died laughing... strange day's...

Fried Day

2005-01-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

Went for training on sentosa today.. 26 years on this god forsaken planet and i get burnt today...what a laugh... back's all raw and red...if that is even possible...Got chicken!!! Fried Chicken!!! today was more like route familliarization... the plan was to swim 800 or so meter's then run from where we were at rasa sentosa to pahlawan beach... but of course i ended up swimming more... every bloody time i looked up i was facing the damn beach... had to turn and start again... super direction problem... they should have some one draw line's in the sea... like they have at swimming pool's... yeah i know...like that'll happen... but hey it's a good suggestion right... then went for a hair cut at the qb house thing...crappy cut... not too pleased with it.. like aunty dolly would say...it'll grow back... haha... went to watch Elektra after that... must say i thunk it was tastefully done... i liked it.. not too unbelieveable... good story line... good graphics... good red leather outfit...good god jennifer garner.... hubba hubba....!!! hahaha...

2005-01-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa for training to day... was ok... got burnt by the sun... 26 years on this strange planet and today i get burnt... what a laugh... went home then went to plazasing to watch elektraaaaa.... Nice realll...NICE...haha... very tastefully done i must say... above my expectations of the movie... good story line... great graphics...though it pushes beleiveability a little...it doesn't go too fAR...

Randomly yours...

2005-01-18T13:21:00.000+08:00

i actually took quite a while to put this up so it's a bit back dated... though i can't for the life of
me remember what inspired this... but will be back when i do... funny as it seem's i Do know that when i was done with this one i was extremely happy with it... and strangely... some what relieved...

Like somebody else's plan you crept in on all fours,
talking about me like a third person,
With a mallcious smile you called me a thornapple,
but that should be my river in egypt.
with anal preccision you analyze me,
without a molecule of le way.
yes it is too much to handle,but you'll delegate,then it won't work.
and we'll be back to where it all began,
Talking about me like a third person.

Memoirs of a feeling (Part 6)

2005-01-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

With warm lips you breathe colour into a greyed soul,

like fresh lava love flows again,
with anxiousness the sweltering heat is greeted,
A new layer over long forgoten one's
I am teased again with hope...

Harpy New YEar...

2005-01-03T13:36:00.000+08:00

alright...new .... old rules....new ways to break em.... must get a little creative.... or ...perish... had lotsa fun during the holidays... mostly weekends..seeing as to how i'm working and not in school... the weather of coruse sucked to the core... but hey i' didn't get washed away in a wave... so there's an optimistic point of view... my heart goes out to the victims and the people suffering now at the hand of god.... *And as usual i come in and say there is a bigger picture to everything... what it is i have no idea... but i can guess that bi-lateral relationship between alot of neighbouring countries will improve and new friendships will be formed... what does'nt kill us will make us stronger *( pay no attention to what is said between the two " * " i have no idea what i'm taking about here ) so what happen's now with the U.S and they're terrorism thing... seemed to have disappeared under a wave... a killer wave... hmmm seem's convinient.... too convinient.. I don't really give a crap though... just thinking too much... i guess....
Well Memoirs of a feeling should be returning shortly... same feeling different subject.. got's ta move on... can't stay rooted for too long... too many potential's ( potential diffrence's )(hahaha work humour) too little time..
this should be interesting... even for me....
watched oceans 12 yesterday with alot of people... a row and a half.. orgainizing while i was there to buy the tickets and return change and get the right number of tickets.. took alot of energy....and some rocket science.....but it turned out ok.. got enough of tickets... Pheeew.,..!!!! no one left crying... hahaha... i went in really late as usual because of a certain someone... Tsk tsk... miss TAn Christina...was late... but she showed up... Phew ... we walked right in cos no one was there to take our tickets... then this two girls that followed me to the entrance tried to hand me thier tickets to let them in... the NErve... told them i didn't work there... smiled then bolted to catch our movie... played pool for while then went to cuzz place then to kev's place then finally home...sweet (cough) hoe'm

Reminise

2004-12-28T18:44:00.000+08:00

i saw your name carved into stone,
i saw your last moments carved in my mind,
i love you more now, but it's too late,
i am no angel, but i knew i was loved....... Unconditionally.

Yultide Melancholy

2004-12-28T13:25:00.000+08:00

hmm... well that was worst than i thought it would be.... just finished an exam at work and am not feeling too good about it... still alot of questions i haven't got answered yet... but nonetheless the book is supposedly correct...so we'll see... hehehee yeah right... well that's over for good i hope... although it was a retest... ( i only failed the first time cos the exam was on christmas EVE!!!!!) ( HHHHHeeeeeeeeelllo people.... what were you thinking... EXAM on CHRISTMAS EVE!!!) MAn being a working adult stinks.... !!!! oh well...!!!! went out for dinner with a few friends last night was... fun as usuall.... :) went to marche... and realliazed that i over ate this christmas... same thing happenned last year... and the year before that.... and before that one too.... only difference was i think i was more liquor'd up this year... made it more surreal... strange... should becareful now.... kinda like that surreal feeling... might backfire and mutate me into an alcoholic.....

a will have i for thee,
a sill have i for me,
a thrill it is to be,
a spill is left to see.

hmmm... nice.... :)

go figure....

christmas

2004-12-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh man...IT's finally here again... Christmas.... where the air is filled with joy and present's and family and friends come together to celebrate.... But the feeling is not all there for me... Of course i have friends and family but it'll be my first christmas without aunty molly... i haven't talked about it or told anyone... but i sure as hell have been thinking about it... alittle too much i think....

Saturday...

2004-12-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

welll it's been a while... nothing's new... haven't really thought of what to put up here....
went to mark's birthday on saturday ... was a really wild one.... I mUSt say it was spiritually up-lifting..... Seeing as to how i drank bourbon.... champagne... Rum n coke... Vodka Coke... and started doing shot's off a 140 kilo block of ice...

Damn that was a big block of ice... Four Feet long A foot wide... Did shots off it the rest of the night... lots of alcohol... in that very little space of time... we then left and went to emerald hill to continnue partying...but just as we got there.... the cop's got there too...damn it....!!!! short lived..hahaha ...

Another weekend

2004-11-22T17:08:00.000+08:00

Another weekend's over and done with... alll tired now .. been workin too hard i guess... learnt some interesting facts today... which has rudely awoken me this slumbersome monday... i learnt that our aussie friends work an average ot a thousand eight hundred hours a year and they're workin on bringing it down... while we here in singapore work two thousand two hundred and eighty eight hour's....with out over time... MAn what a life...then again we don't live for very long either... Ratio's... Interesting... there was a luncheon at my uncle's house yesterday ...sort of a get together before an Aunt and uncle of mine migrates to New Zealand with they're kids...( mah cousin's) i must say that i haven't spent enough time getting to know them better than i do or than i would have like to... And they'll be leaving soon... Mental note.... !!! " i will visit them... " :o) I wish them the best of luck in all they do... I'd say i'd pray for them...but the old man and i are not seeing eye to eye lately... i Was there earlier so i just hung around before everyone got there and for everytime i was asked where my mother or sister was .... i answered ( and i swear ) seriously " Don't know Don't care !!! " And all it did was made a few people laugh... Strange... But then again if a joke can be received the wrong way then why can't something serious be received like a joke... had to work so i couldn't stay for longer than i wanted too as well... it' was really nice seeing all my cousin's again... Strange enough i managed to spend a few hours there without saying a word to a certain someone. oh ya and The food was ssssssssswEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTttttttttt ... Took a couple of picture's... will try putting them up here soon... Before i left my uncle almost made me swear to meet up with him... this week,this weekend , or sometime soon... but i'll be conviniently busy for the next few weeks... Oh brother i can see exactly where this one's going... HE's going to talk to me about the family and my mother and my sister and god know's whatever else'.... BUt honestly I really don't care about what everyboy or anybody for that matter thinks anymore... It's simply high time i started worrying about what i think... I mean it is my life as well isn't it... So when am i suppose to get a say in it... when i die...!!! Or maybe it'll be a bit too late then... Hmmmm??? !!!

Another JOkes

2004-11-20T10:14:00.000+08:00

she spoke to me today and said something like why am i behaving like this.. that i should try and do what i don't know... i wasn't listening... can't remember... i tend to just switch off when people start talking rubbish... But i do remember feeling completely insulted after that... AAAAArgh Fuck it !!!

today

2004-11-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

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the weekend...

2004-11-08T17:13:00.000+08:00

OH man what a weekend…. Went for the first of our training for the biathlon on Saturday morning …As usual I over slept and woke up late… rushed down for the swim… Struggled and finished my eight laps then went for the run… all done on an own time own Target…Ala Army style… After that we went and played street soccer near where I used to live…. Was pretty cool seeing that place again…and of course marveling at all the changes…. But then again it’s been three years since I’ve moved out…It was Nostalgic… We then went to Sentosa…was fun Slacking at the beach… Duane Kevin Vincent and me… Dang Dang After that we made plans to meet for dinner at the corner coffee shop opposite serangoon Stadium on the train on our way back…I decided to go home first and clean up my stuff… So I went home and then had another lunch…heh heh… was hungry…! Had instant noodle with one fried chicken and the previous day’s chicken curry and some other left over chicken kurma… Man !!! After that was sick of chicken for the day… Got ready to go meet Duane and Vince and Joanne… and Left… On my way to the coffeshop I called Duane and asked him where he was and he said he was meeting Vince & Jo at the busstop… so I got on the bus and headed to the coffeeshop.. To my surprise the coffeshop was closed and Yup I went to the wrong place… haha took a bus from there to Chomp chomp’s to meet them… they had a good laughed… I’m still innocent I say… !!! ate chicken AGAIN... had an early night and woke up in time for practice ..did the usual mass then practice after mass then went back home.. went swimming at Abby’s place then to kev’s place for dinner.. was cool watched Shark’s tale while I was there and White chicks….. “ Guantanamera…. I need A GuANTNAMERA…Guantanameeeeeeera…. Hahahaha

National Serviceman

2004-11-05T15:31:00.000+08:00

here's a good laugh... iwas on my way to work this morning and i got off at the usuall place... i had to cross the road so i walked to the pedestrian crossing twenty meters away... there was this pretty big sized and buff looking Guy in his army uniform waiting there...he was holding onto the button you'd push to cross the road and complaining to his friend that these damn lights take for ever to change in hokkien... what he didn't realize was that he was pressing the button of a newly erected traffic light that didn't have any lights on it... the old black and yellow poled traffic light was next to the new one and was still in use... The new pole didn't even have the red, amber, and green light fixed on it yet... Oh what a laugh that was....soooo early in the mornig...!!! I'd like to thank that serviceman for making my side's hurt like helll.... it's not so much the pressing of the wrong button that kills...it's the complaining that hit's the nail on the head... hahahaha
"Everybody want's to be a comedian"

I'm Back

2004-11-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

Alright...reservist is finally over... wasn't as bad as i thought it would be... felt like i was an nsf again.... everything's ok i guess for now... cept for the pain in my neck that's starting to be areal pain in my neck....

Like A stone

2004-10-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

I'm shit face exhausted right now... finished work at the hotel last night at three in the morning... got into bed at four... one and a half hour's later i was up getting ready for work...ouch... contemplated not coming to work...but decied it would be in my best interst to show a lil dedication to the job... and i'm a sucker for it... dragged my self through work up till now... tied up all my loose ends' paper works' all settled too...phew...it wasn't much to do but it makes all the difference when your dead beat tired... will have to go for a haircut...and worse yet.....will have to shave.........AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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AAAAAAAargh....!!! well on the brigther side i will be re-united with my chin.... haven't seen it in a long long long very long time... three to four years i think...!!! it'll be nice getting back together after so long...but i'm having mixed feelings about it..yup yup...you're wondering what the hell i'm talking about...hey if you find out please let me know too...all correspondence will be kept confidential.... and enormous...(sorry could't spell the othe word...)...
then i gotta head back and pack for reservist tomorrow...So from the likes of things so far...i may be out of sight/sound for a while... i should have my mobile with me should the need arise for you to pick up your phone and call me at four in the morning... but result's may vary..it'll be on a case by case basis... this weekend was alright... highlight's...: liverpools come back from a down by two goals to a three two win against fullham...woooo hooo...!!! i'm no critic... i was watered down courtesy of duane...( two pleese!!! ) ( beer la!!!) learnt something pretty interesting about beer distilling taps from work too...quite cool...basicallymucking around to fix something without having to break it first...(lost agian?...ya me too!!! ) heard the word Ba Dang Dangs on the radio this morning...still cracks me up....!!! hahahaha What WOULD i do with out the morning express... iswear man... thinking of starting a petition to get them to work on saturdays and sundays as well.... but i don't think they'd be too pleased bout that one...hmmmmm!!! alot of my plans for the next week and a hlf look's bleak..but see how things go..will be in touch with the respective people for the respective stuff... :) see how things go... alright folks...unitl i'm on line again or till after the 30th... I'll chee you choon!!!

Piar heh ?

2004-10-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

Like a watchman i sit at the door
waiting jealously,
With Vermin strolling in and out hand in hand i
witness Daily,
You are there for everyone save me.

"Mere DuniAhi Chotto Aum!"
"Bas!! Bas!! KEdin!!"

Do i Love you ?
Why not ask me If i breathe Instead.... !!!

Another Huh???

2004-10-15T17:09:00.000+08:00

Ahhh yes tis another fryday gone with the wind...
all is good i guess fer now... nothing's new... gona head home for now... might comeback on line tonight to add some stuf...depends.... :) Happy Holidaying Weekenders Toodle loo... Rasmelime...!!!

OooooWe

2004-10-14T16:43:00.000+08:00

ooooooooooOooOOOOOOOOUch.... ok i think i've over done it...no wait... i know i 've over done it... my stomach feels like it's gonna BLOW...!!!! the whole two table spoons of coffee powder... on a day to day basis... might just be the cause of this unbearable pain... or maybe it's the fact that the food here in this new place isn't appetizing enought to eat.. which is why i've also curbed my diet... maybe the gastic juices are resorting to digesting on the inner linnings of the stomach walls...which is giving me this gastric like feeling...OH WAIT... isn't mustard bad for gastric... shit i had mustard in my sandwhich.... Oh crap.... if this means that i have to curb the pure coffee diet for the first three hours of work...to sustain me for the following six hours...io'm in more trouble than i thin i am in!!! look's like i'll be needing something stronger... gotta get in touch with the "Don" then....

After one week and three days i made contact with the species yesterday briefly... it talked to me... it said quote" turn off the tap! "Unquote it came in the nick of time too...they were threatening to pull my funding...again... if these things aren't taken care of it could cost me the Noble Peace prize...
All these Diplomats...!!!

I Heard a very good quote today... i'm going to use even if it's not mine...because it applies to everyone... even myself... My stomach is still hurtin like a bitch... I'm just hoping that an alien doesn't rip it's way outta me... Does Anyone know if Sigourney Weaver is in town... It would help to know that she's not... one less thing to worry about... Worked till pretty late yesterday... eight to be exact.. Feels awkward....!!! Maybe it's cos it's been a while since i have... but gotta for now... i'm going ona mindless holiday next week...Whhhhooooo hhoooo .....Reservist!!! hahaha one and a Half Weeks to Rest And Relax.... Yeh BaAabY... no poems lately worst drought to get hit by this year... Shall i wait for clouldy skies..

Quote " Everyone Has A tail, Make sure No one is stepping on yours...!!! "

Gona head home early today... Take some medicine get some rest perhaps... Might do me some good... Key word here being Rest

Huh???

2004-10-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

there has got to be more to life than this... my day to day undertakings doesn't warrant a worthy enough approach or attempt.... which is why i'm in contempt of the court of life...!!! If there were a price to it... what would it be... to Peace of mind that is!!!! would anyone be willing to spend an entire life working for it or would it take much less of an effort....
what ever it is you've gotta appreciate all the smoke blowers... all they do is blow smoke up your arse...all day all night... and you'd be none the wiser...